Long question ? But what do you think of my life ?

This is very unfortunate. I know my words cannot match how you truly feel, but you have my deepest sympathies. Stories like yours make me realize how much I took for granted as a child. I hadn't a care in the world, in fact I feel my childhood was the best period in my life, and I am truly sorry yours couldn't have been the same. But don't let the problem define your life, try to remember all the times were the cough wasn't such a struggle. Is this still something you are going through? If not, I'm glad. Try to make the very best of your life from here on!! Remember it is better to have lived than not at all!